Cymbalta Day #2

I woke up this morning feeling like normal, groggy, tired... went to sleep fairly late, after midnight I think, but I can't be sure.

I took 1 mg of Lorazepam to sleep.

Donald took the babes to school. I texted my boss, told him I needed another day for my body to adjust. To which, he responded that he wants a medical release before I return. That freaked me out. I was wondering why in the world he would say that. Donald talked to him later and found out that it was to take the pressure off of me to return to work too quickly. He knows me, he knows how responsible I feel and how bad I feel for missing work, but he understands that I need to take care of myself. My fear is that he'll fire me because I am missing work or because I am "unreliable". All thoughts from me, nothing he said.

I suppose I should be grateful that I didn't have a heart attack or something worse happen to get my attention. I need to learn to take care of myself, and unfortunately, I have a job that I feel like I am leaving, for a moment in time, people who need me and responsibility, but fortunately, I have people who love and care about me and who understand that I need to take care of myself in order to live.

I want to take care of myself, my family and then others. I haven't taken care of myself my entire life. I have avoided that, for what reason, I do not know. I've always taken care of other people.

I felt the same strange, "took too much sleep medicine hung over" feel shortly after taking the Cymbalta. I am hoping that my body builds up a tolerance to this or gets used to it. I figure out it's the Hydrochloride in the pill. That ingredient in medicine always makes me feel this way. It's a gross feeling.

All for now.